please dont stop the music

i srsly need to gtfo of this house.
its killing me.
unfortunately, i need roomies bc rent is way too high uptown and i am not trying to live in metarie. basically, right now, just about everything in my life is bring me down. things are not how i want them and im pretty damn frustrated about the fact that i cant really do anything about it at the moment.
also, i need a fucking camera. and though my mother used and lost my $600 one that i loooved, she is basically refusing to replace it saying that its not lost, its around here, she just needs to find it. really? well itd be really fucking great if you could have found it sometime in the last like 5 months. i do not have another $600 to spend, not to mention, they dont even make that camera anymore and i dont really like any of the ones i am finding now bc they just arent as good.


tomorrow is the last of my four days off and i need something to do. i cant decide if what i need is alone time or a distraction. i guess i will see who is up to what tomorrow and just wing it from there. i really need to either talk to someone or just be completely left alone. tbh, i would really rather a distraction though. i def. dont want to end up a nutcase like poor britney. who is apparently having a breakdown as i type (the reason i know this.)
on a brighter note...
today was spa day, which i do every so often because im one of those girls who really likes facials and eyebrow waxing and stupid little things like that. so, i went to cvs & got like 4 different biore cleansers and strips, and i must say, the best product i have ever EVER used is the pore minimizing exfoliant. it works so incredibly well, you dont even know. me and lele used it tonight and your face ends up feeling and looking so soft and fresh and im pretty sure its my new beauty addiction. though i dont suggest using it often, bc you can FEEL it working (meaning you feel the burn as all that dead skin comes scraping off.)
i also watched some old episodes of what not to wear today and i really want to know what brand of spray foundation carmindy uses. i know dior has one, but to be honest, i dont really wear foundation enough to spend dior money on it and i dont think thats what she uses anyway. since im on the topic of looks and the such, i really wanna dye my hair red. ive wanted to dye my hair really super red for as long as i can remember, but i dont really have the skin tone to pull it off. im the lightest in my family, yes, but i think i have too much of a pinkish undertone to really look good as a red head. the general opinion has led me to believe that i look better with a darker (my natural) hair color anyway. its just frustrating because i like lots of change.
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HONESTLY
as much as i want to move, i should really probably just stay here and save my money until i can move out of this city and on to someplace thats more like me.
im thinking somewhere along the lines of new york or la. of course, i could always cross the pond but lord knows id die before i stay here long enough to save THAT much.
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