and now to me everything else, it just sounds like a lie

so these past few days have been rather amazing. youve read about my weekend already and then yesterday i finally found a good version of "going for the gold" to listen to while i sleep, i got the britney tickets i had been hoping for at a very good price, the book i started reading is amazing, my money situation is improving, i found out that lily is doing a u.s tour & that bruce is playing bonnaroo. everything has been very fun and positive lately and now im completely terrified that something terrible is going to happen to counteract all of this. this is exactly how my life was when my dad died. we had just got back from skate & surf, i had a new job & apartment, i had new friends, and my life was going really well and then he was gone and my life took this like 3 year downward spiral that im just starting to feel like i recovering from. i hate living with this fear that every time things are going well for me, that something is going to happen to ruin it all.

anyway, here is "going for the gold" if you want to hear it.

i really like the part where he says "cause each note sounds so pure, it just cuts into her". he says cut so crisply that you can feel and almost see it then her is sung so sympathetically that you feel like hes apologizing to her for everything else seeming so fake. its probably one of the strongest endings of a song bc it leaves you with a definite emotion. well it leaves me with one, thats probably bc i love everything conor & bright eyes and so i tend to listen repeatedly and over analyze.

ps. i have no idea why who ever posted this video used such a creepy picture. so here is a more accurate one.