You're not reallysure what you're doing this for but you need something to fill up the days

Id like to think that I would have never allowed myself to be that person bc I wouldn't feel right possibly hurting someone for the sake of selfishness, but for a split second I really considered it, just because it was a completely new feeling. now I just need things to get out of my head; so, I am welcoming any and all distractions.

le sigh... my insides have been so rollercoaster-y lately :(