& girls just wanna have fuh-un

so im totes a night owl. i never get to bed before 3 am anymore and its sooo not cool.
i mean, it is cool when im having fun or out, not so fun when im just here listening to music playing on the internet & essentially just wasting hours away. wtf, right?
anyway, today i had this crazy random talk with my mother about some of things that have happened in our family, my dad, and the passing of other people and ugh, i dont know. it was very emotional and i was completely drained before i even went to work. lucky for me we are in our slow time of the year so it was a piece of cake. and i made $30 on a particularly slow evening.
i feel bad for lauren & her family but it kind of seems like she has the same attitude now as i had about my memaw, which is weird bc i always believed that grief was so different and indivual that it couldnt be understood by anyone else... maybe i was wrong. or maybe im projecting my feelings about my situation onto laurens so that way i can try to help her better. ugh i dunno. tooooo much thinking tonight.
i cant wait til thursday. i know i just saw co&tmvb in austin in like september but im kinda really excited bc i just love this cd and he is just as lovely as ever and i think me and the lelers could use some good ol sister bonding time.
that being said.... i really want to see the killers soon too. ive only seen them once at memphis in may like a century and a half ago and with this new cd coming out & the brandon flowers rendition of girls just wanna have fun floating around youtube, i NEED to see them on this next tour. so im trying to convince someone to roadtrip it with me but im pretty sure it might not happen bc the only person i think would be remotely interested is lele & shes poor like me these days. ugh. fucking bills suck.