"muttered buffin"
"alex likes to dance to metro station bitch." he does though in all seriousness.
we said lots of funny clever things tonight but we cannot remember them. too bad for you.

so we are trying to convince alex to turn this stupid movie off & it goes like this...
me- "alex, i think there is gonna be a lot of gay sex in this movie."
-alex "its ok. its what i deal with all day at work."
ps. drunk blogging is fun.

it's just one of them days that a girl goes through

this morning has been rather busy for me. i was up at 8, which NEVER happens, but i had things to do. anyway, it works out bc i have everything finished for today and all i have left to do is go to work to do bar. i have an hour before i have to leave so im sitting here getting some music & i was browsing some peoples folders and was completely surprised to see someone had a folder named "black music"-- in what world is that ok!? i mean, it could be worse but srsly... black music? i got songs from them anyway though, bc to be honest they have a really good collection of old school r&b (think monica & boyz ii men circa 1995) but i was just at a loss when i saw that.

this weekend shall prove to be a chill one. i am free from work as of 8pm tonight & have no intentions whatsoever of going out for the entire weekend. after the fun & fiascos of last weekend, which i am still recovering from (just look at my legs for the proof), i am sure i will not being going out for quite some time. so i have plans for the movies saturday & sunday and then im hoping to take my sisters to city park to have one of those nice picnic/reading days where we just hang out together. i havent done that with them in probably over a year and they're such good company. i just love the little people they are becoming.

in other news, they have released the coachella line up & tickets went on sale this morning & i really want to go. the line up is amazing. of course, ive wanted to go for quite a few years (especially that year madonna played) but this year especially bc i would like to see conor & jenny again plus seeing the cure and lupe fiasco in one day would probably just blow my mind. now the trouble will be finding someone to go with. im not asking any of my best friends bc i just know they wouldnt like it. we dont listen to the same kind of music at all & it would be like if lauren asked me to go to some country music festival with her (exception being that my music is actually good, but thats just a detail.) so my only hopes are lele & jordan. im sure lele wont go bc i would not go if alex went & she wouldnt go if he couldnt. so really my only hope is jordan. so im crossing my fingers! if i cant get some plans going in the next few weeks though, then im just gonna buy britney tickets and go to that in march. now, britney is by no means a substitute for coachella bc that music actually has some integrity, but her music IS fun to dance to, so i'm down with it.

its 5 oclock in the morning, the conversation got boring

i have absolutely nothing of any value to write here tonight(or really any other night since my blog is less philosophical than i would like) bc everything i was thinking about at work has since left my brain & i forgot my notebook at home today so i couldnt jot things down as i was thinking them. i hate when i do that. oooh well, if im meant to think about those things more then i suppose they will come to me again.
besides, tonight id rather watch donnie darko than write. :)

don’t be sad when the sun goes down

i know im not the only one who does this but, you know how when there is something you really want to do or say but you have this feeling that maybe you shouldnt and youre afraid to really make a decision so in your head you kind of make this weird bet with the universe like ..."if the next song that plays is a happy one then i will do it" or "if the light doesnt turn red before i pass it then i will tell him/her"? so i kind of did that today and i had to LOL because the universe gave me the most ambiguous response ever& so just a word of advice... be specific if youre the kind of person who does things like that too bc now i still cant decide what to do so im just gonna leave it alone for tonight.

they built the pyramids!

so im about to go to work but i must say... today was gone quite well thus far. i got a check for $200 that i wasnt expecting which means i now have money to fix my brakes so i no longer have to fear dying in an accident bc my brakes have failed me, no one has been here all day so ive just kinda hung out and finished up a few things, and ive been watching big bang theory & 30 rock while straightening my hair (which looks pretty amazing today, if i do say so myself). all i have to do is get through work unscathed & today will have been near perfect. :)

today is one of those days where i just want to crawl under a rock and not come out.
hopefully it gets better late, maybe im just in this mood bc i woke up @ 7.

forever united here somehow

since last tuesday ive had every intention of sitting down and writing all my opinions/feelings about the inauguration but here i am almost a week letter and i still have not. this is supposed to be my attempt at recording the thoughts i remember having but its entirely too hard for me to write about something im not feeling at the moment...its frustrating. so instead of my reflections on the inauguration im going to recap my last few nights & write about what im feeling tonight--which is a lot of boredom & a few things i really dont feel comfortable airing on my blog, so actually i guess this is more an entry to say that
1. i cannot stop listening to My Life Would Suck Without You. its just as infectious as Since U Been Gone but happy!!!
2. my schedule this week is amazing and i cannot wait until the weekend.
3. there is this pseudo-situation that has been all in my head for the past week or so and i wish i could just get it out of my brain.
4. I AM SO AWAKE AND ITS LIKE 4 AM AND IM GOING TO DIE TOMORROW IF I CANT FALL ASLEEP SOON!!!
5. oh, and i still really want an iphone like super super bad. stupid apple.


its a lovely song, i dont care what anyone says.

I've got mixed-up memories And I've got favourite places

this weekend hasnt been completely devoid of fun. yesterday we went around the cbd to see the prospect 1 art exhibits. they were astounding, except the one in front of harrahs, that one kinda pissed me off a little. overall though, it was rather nice bc the weather was perfect, and the pieces were good and thought provoking and, to say the least, beautiful. i particularly loved the chandelier over the mirrored floor, though had i known that there were mirrored floors involved i would not have worn a dress. then today was full of loveliness & fun. i woke up, went shopping with bunn & some of his friends, came home to bake & ended up dancing to lady gaga & madonna in the kitchen while icing cupcakes, which, btw came out super cute. im excited for tomorrow. i feel like this election was a great one. its the first time that the person i voted for won & i really feel like i was a part of something big, something thats gonna bring about a lot of good. im just so very happy & full of hope tonight-- and its not the fleeting the kind, its the real kind, the kind that makes me sure that things in this country are going to start heading in the right direction. :D

i dunno. im just on top of the world at the moment. my day was filled with things i love: shopping, good music, and great people & tomorrow is just gonna be even better!

discarded all the naughty nights for niceness

i totally want to go out tonight. even though i have plans early tomorrow and all i feel like im just wasting time i wont ever get back. night time is so much fun and im just here, bored, listening to the artic monkeys on my kooks radio station, writing/making an entry into my notebook, and being really fucking bored. this sucks. lately ive just been feeling this sense of urgency to just live and be apart of everything, good and bad, and just being home tonight-- it feels like this great pressure thats hanging over me trying to get me out of here, but i have nowhere to go. uuugh.
i need more friends with interests that are at least somewhat similar to mine.
that or i need to move bc i feel like im dying here.

i love this song, especially tonight for some reason.

saawariya

everyone knows im a huge fan of foreign films but i have never really watched very many bollywood movies, probably only like two or so. so i watched this one last night bc it cinematography wise it looked pretty brilliant and im sucker for nice settings. i looooove this movie. its almost like a bollywood moulin rouge. now some parts of it are pretty dramatic & its definitely not for everyone, but its beautiful to watch & you really feel everything and understand the characters. its probably one of the best movies ive seen in quite a long time. of course my head is kind of like this movie lately-- just kinda dreamy & lovely, balancing somewhere between seriousness and humor not knowing whether to be happy or sad or maybe a little of both.


Saawariya Title Track - The funniest bloopers are right here


Saawariya - Masha Allah - Funny videos are here

do you want to listen to my splendid eloquence for a few starry hours?

so ive definitely snapped out of my whole little dream world that ive been in for the past few days. i hate when i go through little periods of daydreaming and floating along like that bc i become so detached from whats actually going on. i have a tendency to do this; while it happens less often, i wish it would stop all together because that fall back into reality sucks. i always end up disappointed and sad and to feel that right after such hope and :) is not nice, it kinda hurts a little.

moving on... i have to go fight these people about the ticket they sent me in the mail and i have to go by tomorrow. i havent decided if im going to just go today and leave for work an hour or so early or if im just going to wake up early and go tomorrow. i will probably just go tomorrow though bc i know if i go today with an hour to spare, its going to take 2 hours and i wouldve just wasted time. plus if i go tomorrow i can just swing by uno & delgado to get all this loan stuff settled. not to mention, itd be much better if i was dressed cute rather than in my work skirt & shirt when i go to the courthouse.
i cannot wait until sunday. i mean, im off tomorrow but then i have to be back at work on saturday (which sucks bc im missing justin's wedding :( ) BUT some sunday i am free of the drury inn & suites until thursday! i love when all of my days off are together like that. albeit, if i had more money and could take a mini road trip it would be much better, but its still nice. ive had my fill of fun for the past few months, so now i can just kinda settle back into the regularity of work and hopefully school. :)

i like your steeze, your style, your whole demeanor

so im about to leave for work in a few & my cell has been dead since about 11 something. apparently at&t sucks. its has something to do with our areas network, im guessing something broke but it better be fixed soon bc what the hell am i gonna do at work today with no cell service?!
i watched happenstance this morning when i woke up... so cute. i love movies like that. im a nerd though, so im probably alone in how cute i think it is.
anyway, i was just randomly on post secret and this made me lol...

srsly. i diiiied when i read that.

there was also this one...

that kills. at the same time, im sure she is not the only one who does things like that. im pretty sure everyone is guilty of e-stalking their friends, crushes, or enemies. its human nature to be curious and the internet just makes it so easy. lol that sounds totally creepy, huh?

currently playing: "dilemma" by nelly & kelly rowland.
i wanted to put the video up but i cant find it anywhere. youtube sucks.

es una obsesion

so its not secret that i really admire people with talent and im listening to marc anthony right now and for all of his unattractiveness, im like 70% sure i could fall in love with him based solely on his talent. isnt that crazy!? he can sing and all his songs are so cute and sweet and romantic and terribly cheesy but perfect for nights like this when youre just awake without anyone to talk to.
that being said. im like on spanish music trip tonight bc its all marc, 2 versions of obsesion, selena and no me ames on my playlist at the moment.

what a lonesome feeling, to be waiting around like some washed up actress in a tinsel town

no great thoughts or revelations in the past few days-- just work, randomness, reading and the such. im just trying to update this almost everyday so i can keep on point with my writing, i feel like ive taken too long of a break from it. im not trying to be epic, just consistent and honest.

last night night i went with bea & lacey to vinnies super last minute, like i left work early, came home, got dressed, and then lacey picked me up kinda last minute. it was fun for all of its briefness. it was odd to get home before like 4 or 5 bc i was still kinda awake since im used to being up til around then. i did, however, fall asleep rather quickly once i was off the phone bc i think i was still tired due to my lack of sleep from the previous nights.
anyway, today i have work 3-11p and im so not feeling it bc we are running at almost 100% occupancy and im there by myself once bar is over. :( that being said, im pretty sure we are either going to be very busy or very slow, which means i will either get to read a lot of my book or i will want to kill someone. lets hope its the former and not the latter.

you make me feel out of my element

it is totally pathetic that im updating this twice in one day, but if im gonna do it then there is no better day than a sunday. at least i dont look like a loser! :)
aanyway, i was just thinking about the fact that katy perry is nominated for a grammy. has the show lost all credibilty!? i mean srsly... KATY PERRY?! ugh. nothing makes me more angry than this bc i dont think conor OR the kooks were even nominated and theyre so amazing but "i kissed a girl"/psuedo-lesbian katy perry gets a nom?! the world is slowly beginning to disappoint me.

in other news, im listening to this new playlist that is probably the most random thing ive ever put together(think taylor swift meets aly & aj, britney, the kooks, conor, & lily. its insanity.), but it is perfect for how im feeling tonight. although if i had any songs that induced fear id probably put them on too bc im kinda apprehensive about somethings right now. like the fact that i dont even know if my loan is gonna be in on time and if i dont get to go to school this semester im gonna be so very sad. my horoscope says this is a perfect time for me to be taking on new projects & for the first time in a long time i feel like the stars are very in sync with where i am personally. i kinda feel invincible and now these stupid little things like due dates and the such are gonna get in my way. ugh :( damn the man. im gonna listen to some lily allen now.

hold on to this kite

tonight, thus far, has been uneventful and lovely. ive pretty much just done my little girlie routine things, like painting nails, washing my hair, doing a facial and am now watching the golden globes. i wouldnt like it if every night was like this, but for today... it will do just fine.
now if one more little thing could happen i would be completely happy, but thats kind of a long shot, and so i will just leave things as they are for now.

oh, potential, youre a loaded line

i hate working early in the morning. im sooo not a morning person.

i love "gentleman's pact" from conor oberst and the mystic valley band. its a pretty good song, it kinda reminds me of bruce but... conor style ([?] if that makes any sense). i dunno. hes just amazing all the time anyway, this is just my obsession for the night. :)

ive been watching 30 rock for a while now and i must say... i really want to move to new york like now. i feel like my entire life is waiting to start until i get there. thats probably not a good thing, but its just this feeling i have. i dunno. you think the book im reading would be warning enough against being idle but i really identify with gloria & anthony's dreams and thoughts about the future. they ignore the present and just float along having fun, kinda like im doing now. only its really not satisfying to them, theyre just too scared to really go out on a limb and actually do anything worth while. that being said... f.scott's words have not fallen upon deaf ears (or blind eyes? it seems that be more appropriate to say since i am reading the book but thats an awkward take on the saying)...i have applied for two school loans so i can go back asap-- hopefully this semester if it all gets taken care of in time. uggggh. who knows. i feel like ive royally fucked myself with all this sitting out of school business.

anyway, im tired and ive just made myself somewhat sad & angry so im off to listen to conor & try to fall asleep.

whilst writing, i came across this...

so correction: this is my new obsession. still love "gentleman's pact" though.

stop youre making me blush.

im the kind of person that commercials are geared toward. im such a slave to consumerism that its crazy, and as aware as i am of this, i still give in eventually. i own so many things i never use or that are completely impractical but still, i feel like i need more. for instance, im currently fighting this very strong urge to buy the iphone. its such an absurd little machine that does all these ridiculous (but cool) pointless things. i have a phone thats perfectly fine. it holds all the music i really need it to, it has a good enough camera to make for decent facebook mobile uploads when im drunk, it lets me on the internet when the sites are blocked on the work computer but for all of this, for as satisfied as i am with what i currently have, knowing that there is something better that other people have and enjoy that i do not tears at me. i dont need a $400 phone, but will i get it? probably. bc im just that fucking dumb. sometimes america and its big corps bug me. of course, i cant blame just them. i should have a little more self control and will power. oooh well. what can ya do?

in other news... i am bored. and awake. and will probably be up til 4 a.m yet again tonight. why? bc i have the worst sleeping schedule on the face of the earth.

oh & i also am trying to avoid lakeside bc ive been wanting to go to steve madden and sephora soooo bad lately and now that i am not broke i could go buy the stuff i want. however, im going to try to start saving for paris now, with it being the new year and all, i guess now is as good a time as any.

you and i both looooved...

so ive had this really stupid fucking thing on my mind lately & it is interfering in my sleep so i wish it would just hurry up and get resolved or something would happen so i could just be done with it. sometimes i really hate the fact that i think so much and just....ugh! its frustrating.

& yes, i am listening to jason mraz. i love this video.

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cuz im just a teenage dirtbag, baby

so ive been super worried about some...issues ive had recently, but i think everything is gonna end up working out ok and i wont have to worry about ya know...getting arrested!!! srsly. i would die, but i should be able to take care of everything by the end of the week. i dont know why i always think i can just do whatever i want with no consequences. since it is a new year ive decided that im going to try really hard to start being much more mature and really handling my business instead of putting important things on the back burner and ignoring them. also... my horoscope today is like insanely accurate and kind of freaking me out a little, but im pretty sure thats just because i was up watching the history channel and all the 2012 doomsday, prophecy things and now im pretty sure that the whole astrology thing could really mean something. yeah, i definitely should not have skipped so many of my fads & fallacies classes.

ugh. anyway, ive been having tons of fun this month, mostly bc everyone is out of school which means free schedules and lots of drunkeness, which is not always a good thing as my lack of memory can point out. i hate getting really fucking drunk but it just seems to happen every now and then. i dont know why. i am completely determined to only get tipsy this weekend and not drunk til the next day & hungover. new years was really good. there was a little drama but thats mainly bc i get kinda bitchy when i drink redbull and vodka (i have no idea why, but its better than being sad drunk) but we all got over it and ended up embarrassing jordan in front of the kinda cute, possibly gay rotolos delivery guy. so it was amazing as usual. i love my friends, theyre so fun & cute-- you really cant ask for more.

i also find it very funny that i write on this thing and i know no one reads it anymore. whaaatever.its the story of my wonderful little life.