stop youre making me blush.

im the kind of person that commercials are geared toward. im such a slave to consumerism that its crazy, and as aware as i am of this, i still give in eventually. i own so many things i never use or that are completely impractical but still, i feel like i need more. for instance, im currently fighting this very strong urge to buy the iphone. its such an absurd little machine that does all these ridiculous (but cool) pointless things. i have a phone thats perfectly fine. it holds all the music i really need it to, it has a good enough camera to make for decent facebook mobile uploads when im drunk, it lets me on the internet when the sites are blocked on the work computer but for all of this, for as satisfied as i am with what i currently have, knowing that there is something better that other people have and enjoy that i do not tears at me. i dont need a $400 phone, but will i get it? probably. bc im just that fucking dumb. sometimes america and its big corps bug me. of course, i cant blame just them. i should have a little more self control and will power. oooh well. what can ya do?

in other news... i am bored. and awake. and will probably be up til 4 a.m yet again tonight. why? bc i have the worst sleeping schedule on the face of the earth.

oh & i also am trying to avoid lakeside bc ive been wanting to go to steve madden and sephora soooo bad lately and now that i am not broke i could go buy the stuff i want. however, im going to try to start saving for paris now, with it being the new year and all, i guess now is as good a time as any.