oh, potential, youre a loaded line

i hate working early in the morning. im sooo not a morning person.

i love "gentleman's pact" from conor oberst and the mystic valley band. its a pretty good song, it kinda reminds me of bruce but... conor style ([?] if that makes any sense). i dunno. hes just amazing all the time anyway, this is just my obsession for the night. :)

ive been watching 30 rock for a while now and i must say... i really want to move to new york like now. i feel like my entire life is waiting to start until i get there. thats probably not a good thing, but its just this feeling i have. i dunno. you think the book im reading would be warning enough against being idle but i really identify with gloria & anthony's dreams and thoughts about the future. they ignore the present and just float along having fun, kinda like im doing now. only its really not satisfying to them, theyre just too scared to really go out on a limb and actually do anything worth while. that being said... f.scott's words have not fallen upon deaf ears (or blind eyes? it seems that be more appropriate to say since i am reading the book but thats an awkward take on the saying)...i have applied for two school loans so i can go back asap-- hopefully this semester if it all gets taken care of in time. uggggh. who knows. i feel like ive royally fucked myself with all this sitting out of school business.

anyway, im tired and ive just made myself somewhat sad & angry so im off to listen to conor & try to fall asleep.

whilst writing, i came across this...

so correction: this is my new obsession. still love "gentleman's pact" though.